May the love of Jesus fill me, as the waters fill the sea -
Him exalting, self abasing, this is victory.
--Kate B. Wilkinson
The wind stole around us as we neared the ocean's edge.
And we left the stroller and climbed down to the rocks, near the delightfully-refreshing waves.
It was a hot, sticky day, the sun smoldering, the air tepid and still.
We walked here for refreshment and a change of scene before supper. My husband pushed Debbie along, her chubby legs swinging in the heat.
I carried our two-week-old baby, trying to get used to the wrap that he was neatly tucked inside, thinking for a brief moment of the Middle-eastern women who wore their babies with such ease, the wrap an aid to help them with their work.
I needed some help . . .
And we touched our feet on the rocks near the shore and Debbie threw them into the great water one by one, her little self delighted in the splashes that followed.
My husband skimmed shells over the waves and we watched while a para-sailer performed there in the ice-blue water.
I marveled at his skill, which was impressive and then a thought came to me-- "Jesus could walk on the waves without any equipment."
And I looked into the sky and saw the great kite that carried his board and that aided him over the vast expanse of the ocean.
There were sea birds, soaring in the sky near him -- without ropes, without props -- just doing what God made them to do -- soaring--next to that para-sailer in the wind.
God gave them wings, and God created them to fly -- the God who also walked on waves and calmed the raging sea in the storm.
Sometimes I think that I need all of this "equipment" to do what God has called me to do--
At times when He is teaching me to walk by faith, I grow afraid and reach out for my great kite, for my strings, for my life-vest.
And although it is good to take precautions, to be prepared, sometimes I rely upon these things rather than upon Jesus, who would have me cast my self upon Him and let go of my "props".
Now, I have nothing against para-sailers-- I only use them as an example here -- They are fascinating to watch-
And I have nothing against "props" to make life easier -- My Maya wrap has been an incredible help to me -- and so has my baby swing, my car-seats, and my daily cups (plural!) of coffee.
But ultimately, I need to realize that it is Jesus who brings me through the day -- These things can be a help, but they are not the ultimate answer.
And it's Him working through me that enables me to do anything that is worth anything, that has lasting value.
When I try to hold onto my props, to my methods, apart from Him, it's just a performance.
But His grace, His power working in and through us gives purpose.
I want to exchange performance for purpose -- His purpose -- His will daily being worked out in and through me.
I'd like to walk on the waves figuratively, taking His strength for each day--allowing Him to bend my heart and my will into the conformity of His purposes for me.
It's difficult for me to let go of my props, to walk by faith.
It's easier to hang on to our ropes and our sail and our board.
But when we do, we are lifted up, high into the great gust of His wonder and purpose, like the sea birds who dip into the wind and have no fear.
His love enables us not to fear--
And to walk, to fly, by faith.
But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint
Isaiah 40:31
2. Andrew Morrell Photography / Foter / Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivs 2.0 Generic (CC BY-ND 2.0)
3.By Paul Bril [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons
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